For the first time in two years, I'm staring out the window as I type. The view isn't spectacular or amazing, but I see trees and sky. There is natural light and I feel ... alive again. I never realized just how depressing it is to sit in the living room and work when I can't open the blinds and I can't see natural light. My creativity has seemed so shot - here, staring out the window at the thunder storm where the lightning is streaming out of the sky, I feel...free, I suppose. I'm still in the same four walls, but I'm one step closer to nature while in the comfort of air conditioning *grin*. I am, by nature, a person who should not be separated from nature. Not really sure if everyone feels that way or not, but I know that when I can't see God's creation and the creativity He displayed in its creation, I feel stifled myself.
And so I feel as if I can be productive. Not just in things for my job, but also for literary purposes, for musical purposes...just for any creative purpose. No longer will I want to stay at work to get stuff done - now I'm going to want to come home and work. What a first - I mean, I don't even have windows in my classroom *grin*.
The down side is that I am looking directly into the back windows of the house behind us. I have this eery feeling that I'm staring into their bathroom and one day I'm going to see something that maybe I shouldn't. If I sit just right, the windowpane keeps me from seeing into their windows - it goes straight across all windows.
Just as a side note, I'm thankful for the grant that allowed for the school to purchase laptops for everyone in the building; however, the more I work with this thing the less impressed I am with HP ProBook 4430s. One wayward swipe and something weird happens to the keyboard. Just sayin'... *grin*
Well, today was the first official day of school for me - it was unproductive...mostly of my own doing, I will admit. I will blame the lack of running water and an upset stomach, however, for a lot of it because there were quite a few trips out of the building to find a working bathroom :). More information than any of you wanted to know, I'm sure...but true none the less. So I suppose I should get back to work. I just had to stop and exercise my new found creativity thanks to the desk at a window in the office so that both Dear Husband (DH) and I can utilize the office even though he's at the desk where the desktop computer is. I feel more productive already *grin*.
